Let's be real here. Life is not a movie. As much as we wish it were, and oh man do I wish it was, it's not.
Your dream guy won't show up outside your house with a boombox or even a pizza for that matter. The conversations and the things that you wish he would say, he won't. He can't read your mind and he probably does not stay up at night thinking about you. It is harsh, but it is true. He probably doesn't go home and analyze everything he said to you today. He probably doesn't try to come up with excuses to talk to you. He probably doesn't think about texting/calling you nearly as much as you think about it. He just doesn't.
But maybe he does.
And that is where it gets tricky.
Maybe he does stay up at night thinking about you. Maybe he will show up at your door randomly one day (although he still probably won't have a boombox. food is a possibility though). He may know what you are thinking some of the time and he might replay your conversations in his head. Maybe.
You see, the thing is everyone, every relationship is different. Maybe you found yourself in a situation that would be perfect in a Nicholas Sparks book, or maybe that's what you wish would happen.
Maybe he tells you some things, and then does the complete opposite. Maybe he confides in you, but only as a friend. Maybe he is completely smitten by you, but doesn't know how to tell you. Maybe he wants to be something more so bad but the timing is completely wrong. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
There are so many maybes.
I think that is what is so hard for me. I like answers. I would rather know straight up if someone did or didn't like me rather then waiting around to maybe get some kind of hint. I would at least be able to decide what I want to do next! If he did like me, I can see if that could possibly go anywhere. If he didn't like me, I can move on.
So maybe this post helped, or maybe you are even more confused about things then you were before, but this is something that I have been wanting to write for about two and a half months. I am just now barley finding the words for myself though.
-Sam
